the old testament is a crazy read. sometimes it is hard to fathom what things. i can’t imagine that certain things happened or what others would be like. some are a little more outside of my realm of understanding than others.
then there are books like ezekiel.
in the first chapter there are descriptions of these creatures. i can’t wait to get to heaven and have God do a play back for them. did they actually look like ezekiel describes them? were there actually wheels covered in eyes? did they actually have 4 faces on one head?
and then i read chapter 8. and it punched me.
God is walking ezekiel through the horror of what the israelites are doing. the “detestable” things as God describes them. but check this…
Then he said to me, “Son of man, have you seen what the elders of the house of Israel are doing in the dark, each in his room of pictures? For they say, ‘The Lord does not see us, the Lord has forsaken the land.’” 8:12-13
they made their own shrines with the faulty logic that God doesn’t actually see…He in fact has forsaken us.
how many times have i done that? chosen to not believe that He sees me and because He doesn’t see me i can do fill in the blank. that breaks my heart. i don’t want to ever be one who doubts the power and majesty of God. my problem is rarely do i doubt that but i doubt His goodness. and that faulty logic leads to dark places. to places without hope.
i pray that God comes and shines His light into my heart, your heart, daily that we can see that He hasn’t forsaken us. in fact, He promised that He NEVER would. He forsook Jesus so that we wouldn’t be forsaken. thank you Abba Father!