every so often i find myself in a place of frustration where a revelation has been had but it yet to be fully realized. a place where i know such and such is a lie but understanding that it is a lie hasn’t changed anything…yet.
that in between place is the most frustrating thing.
it is in that moment that i see my complete dependence on the God of revelation to keep doing the work. that there isn’t something for me to “do” in this moment but to continue to pursue him and know that He will reveal Himself more when it is time.
the dangerous option here is to grow bitter. resentful.
Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful. Hebrews 10:23
two little words change it all…without wavering.
i recently got to go to austin to hang out with some incredible people and learn. i soaked it up like a sponge! on tuesday night, just before leaving, i got to hear Fabienne talk about hebrews 11 and how faith is assurance in hope and conviction of unseen reality.
if i in fact am living by conviction of those unseen truths that i struggle so hard to believe sometimes, i am living by faith. but so often i am not as faithful as i want to be.
and still God remains faithful to me. He remains faithful to cover me with Jesus’ blood. He remains faithful to be the rewarder of those who seek Him. He remains faithful to not leave me as an orphan.
and it is in that i see how my plea to grow in faith and trust could never be granted if i didn’t understand more fully His faithfulness first and foremost. it is here that i am given the choice to see Him first and trust the things He is working will come. that He will complete that work (phil. 1:6).
